I Haven’t Given Up on Mysticism

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I was never one for consistency.

I talk a good game about being on brand and if there’s anything that best describes mines it’s the sporadic newsletters that I lovingly coin as weekly when they are anything but.

We’re wrapping up a new calendar year and gearing to start a fresh one. I am never ready for the shenanigans of a new calendar year. I don’t like using this time to reflect because it doesn’t feel like an energetic new year. Capricorn, although a cardinal sign, doesn’t really embody fresh new start like Aries does.

If we’re being honest, all I want to do is hide under the covers and daydream my hours away. My work schedule has been grueling and navigating a non-corporate professional environment has been exhausting.

These past few days have been like a trip down memory lane. I was peeping accounts on IG of influencers in Miami and feeling nostalgic about how apathetic I used to be. I miss not having to think about others.

I miss being so absorbed in my own bubble.

I was watching how peeps were boasting about abundance and how a scarcity mindset is what holds us back. What I would give to resume that level of dillusion. The truth is, I can’t go back but I can find a way to bridge both worlds – one full of optimism and one entrenched with the realities of navigating life in capitalism.

If I had to give 2024 a theme, it would be closure and only because 2025’s theme is reckoning.

I’ve been binge watching vintage Sex and the City, reminiscing on the friendship and city vibes that drew me into the series. Watching it as a healed 40 something year old is so different from watching it as a 20 something pendeja.

I’m taking with me the memories of feeling free and leaving behind the toxic attachments I called goals.

Even now, I’m technically on break from my main job as I spend my downtime designing websites, creating content for my brand, and plotting the life I want to enjoy in this new chapter of my life. I’m on track for my masters, I am potentially starting a nonprofit, and faith in self is what will drive my strategy.

Reflecting on the passing year serves no one if you’re not willing to apply those teachable moments into meaningful growth opportunities.

Shedding the ways I deprioritize my own well-being is the breakable habit that has the potential to unlocking a new level of success. I’m curious to hear how 2024 was for you and discuss how I can support the magic you’re looking to conjure up for 2025.

I haven’t given up on mysticism.

I’m not retiring from strategy.

What 2024 taught me was how to elevate what I have. So much of my work and life has been about filling the container I currently have which is limiting. Instead, I want to set a new standard for myself and rise to the occasion.

Are you willing to settle for what you can get or are you ready to strive for what you desire?