I still haven’t unpacked. I’ve been back from Miami for almost a month, to the date, and I have a hard time taking my clothes out of the luggage bag.
Every passing day makes the memories of being a digital nomad faint and distant. As a result, I’m forced to confront realities of my status quo and relearning existing lessons as well as realizing new ones.
I am eternally grateful for having the right tribe, albeit small, of like-minded chicas. They’re fellow ambitionistas pursuing their passion despite the social pressures to conform.
It’s not that traditional employment isn’t viable. It works for those who choose it and thrive in it. I just have a hard time identifying and connecting with people who don’t subscribe to the same ideologies as I do.
5, 10 and even 20 years ago I would have never predicted I’d be here. Since we’re being honest, I’m not 100% confident that I’d do it all over again. But I am grateful for the depth of my insight. I’ve gotten to know myself in a way that I probably never would have and in return I’ve learned to embrace my authentic self.
I’m an emotional person. I may not express it outwardly to people but my inner world is full of deep feelings. Honoring that truth about myself took tons of soul searching and spiritual awakenings.
In the process I’ve lost friends, disconnected from people and let go of relationships with those who no longer serve a purpose in my life. As disheartening as this was, and continues to be, my emotional self is learning to appreciate the time that they were in my life.
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime and this has been the toughest pill to swallow.
These past few months, I’ve taken on a new journey and that’s to befriend myself.
I can’t help but wonder if I’m resistant to unpacking because I’m not willing to decide which items stay in my wardrobe and which get discarded. It’s almost as if each item represents a person in my past and present since I’m making decisions about what to keep for the future.
For the record I’m only half way through. Here’s to hoping I can get through the rest before the season ends. I do have some cute new dresses.