Day 3

Another day has passed and it’s getting easier, albeit it’s still a pain in the ass, this whole “sticking to your goals” thing.

An early lunch and an early dinner did not help with the 11pm munchie attack last night. I looked around to find oatmeal, cereal and pancake mix before resolving that water and a granola bar would have to curb the late night appetite for some bit of nourishment.

Staying up so late got me wondering: what’s the deal with nature vs nurture?

Are we raised to be what is in our nature to be or does our environment shape us into who it expects us to be?

I’ve been a milk drinker since I could probably talk, if not sooner. And now I’m trying to unlearn 30+ years of conditioning.

I’ve been met with both cynicism and support. It begs the question, where is the line blurred? Is there even a line to begin with or is the line an illusion to help us feel comfortable with behaviors that we can’t change or control?

I had a weird dream last night. Very lucid and funky, which only means that my guilt got the best of me this morning. Whenever I go to bed late and wake up late I feel bad.

It feels wrong and my guilt manifests itself in the form of funky weird lucid dreaming. One thing I recall from last night’s subconscious purgatory was a line about responsibility.

“Once you recognize that something is wrong, you can no longer use it as a crutch to justify inaction.”

It sounds better now since I’m alert and able to paraphrase what I meant, even though the original statement was not exactly said like that. But as with most dreams it’s the feeling that matters and I woke up feeling like my quirky mind was sending me a message.

It is in our nature to survive. It is one of the few things that come naturally to us as humans. However our environment is responsible for shaping the framework upon which we use to interpret such things.

We are nurtured to believe that survival is for the fittest. Whether this is wrong or not is not for me to judge.

Is it natural for us to drink cow’s milk? Or have we been conditioned to believe so?

Who would have thunk that giving up dairy for 1 month would be such a deep experience?

Probably Betsy….