I should start all posts with quotes from movies, and let you figure out which film I was watching at the time. Nothing major, just random quotes.

I’m a creature of habit so if I’ve spoken about a movie in the past few days, chances are I’m looping the film. You see, I have this thing where I need to repeat the same movie, music or TV show over and over again, when I’m in the midst of launching something.

I think part of it has to do with memory. I remember where I was the night before if I repeat the external noise. Or maybe I’m just weird. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t have a dedicated playlist for when I design or when I code.

I’m simple yet complicated that way.

And despite my quirky OCD tendency, I still struggle with the journey of new habits. I’m repetitive, almost to an obssessive nature.

So why is chasing endorphines so difficult to embed in my daily flow of things?

At what point do we challenge ourselves with ourselves, at the detriment of ourselves? The hardest mountain to climb are the ones that have an illusion of simplicity.

If it looks like a quick fix, we take it. If there’s a shortcut available, we take it. We’re like Maslov’ rats. Like clockwork, we’re predictable to a fault. And when we’re not, we still are because even spontaneous is a premeditated action.

Any journey begins with admission of the voyage. Once we allow life to be our compass, we become vulnerable to destiny.

I can only speak for myself, but the most exciting part of any journey is day 5 when you realize you’re really ready for change or you realize that you’re really just lying to yourself.

I can pause now and start up again at another time right? No harm no foul. After all, 5 days isn’t a lot. It’s not even a full week. Ctrl+Alt+Delete

Or not. If or when I’m ready to throw in the towel, it will be on my terms and with good reason. Sometimes things don’t work out and that’s ok.